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One year blogging anniversary! 😜🙈 *throws confetti* + Chapters of Confidence tag: Spreading confidence, one heart at a time!

Hailey Madison16 Comments

Hello mah friends! *smiles big and waves aggressively* As you seen from the title, it is my one year blogging anniversary on this blog!! Yaaaay! Haha, it’s pretty cool to think about! Like it’s really been an entire year?! First off, I just want to thank y’all so much for all the love you’ve sent, it really makes me so happy each time reading all the precious comments from you, and seeing a new member of the #ChickenNuggetFam (Aka, a new follower) has joined our amazing group! And yes, Chicken Nugget Fam is the official name for the Sunshine & Rain community. 😂 So thank you all so much for all your support, sweet words, and being apart of everything on this blog!

But anywho, in celebration of our one year anniversary, I have created my very own tag! “Chapters of Confidence: Spreading confidence, one heart at a time.” I had started working on this tag awhile ago, about last fall, but unfortunately somehow lost all my work on it and it had almost been completely forgotten. But, I’ve been working more and I have brought it back!

The reason I had created this tag in the first place, was because there was a specific time I was going through where I literally had 0 self confidence, or esteem. I felt so bad about myself all the time and I ended up starting to hate myself because of it. It kind of just hit out of nowhere and kept coming in waves, and I didn’t understand why I felt so bad about myself. I didn’t like my personality, I wasn’t happy with what I seen in the mirror, and all I did was point out everything I hated that I seen myself as. There was no self love there.

It was a really hard time, and it still is hard because I am not saying “Oh, well i’m completely over it now.” Because it’s not that easy, and I still deal with this stuff alot. But I remember one specific day a few months ago, when I was at my worst. I was angry, sad, and I couldn’t stop asking myself “What is my purpose, and do I even have one?” “Who am I? Why am I here? What’s so beautiful about me?” Those questions overflowed my mind, and I couldn’t stop them. I told myself so many lies, like I didn’t deserve to be loved because of who I was, that I didn’t belong anywhere which just made me feel worse, and all I wanted to do was escape.

That day, I was so sick of it and so desperate that I sat down and said “ya’know what, I’m done thinking of myself like this.” I grabbed a piece of paper, and a pencil and just started spilling out words of encouragement to myself. I started writing down the things that made up who I am, and they were all good things. It just started to flow out of my heart and kept going. A few pencil scribbles later, I ended up with an entire list of things that made up who I was, and that I decided and chose to love about myself. I got rid of all the hate and hurt I had closed up inside myself and refreshed my heart and mind. This small little list gave me self love, it was like literally looking at myself all beautifully written down. It made me happy. I thought, “Is that really how God sees me?”

After I had finished the list, I started to think. “If i’ve gone through this, someone else out there must have too.” And that single thought broke my heart. Knowing that another teen was feeling the same burning hurt that I was, who felt they didn’t belong, who hated themselves so much, immediately lit a fire inside my heart and inspired me to do something about it.

Here are the rules for this tag:

  1. Use the same featured image for the tag (Which is the one that I have designed and have displayed above, but definitely feel free to make your own image to display along with it!)
  2. Thank the blogger who nominated you, and pingback to the tag’s creator (That would be Hailey at https://throughsunshineandrain.home.blog/)
  3. Talk about some ways that you have struggled with self confidence or esteem in the past, or things that have helped you with it. (As I did in the couple paragraphs above)
  4. Out of self love, and confidence, make a “List of you”. A list of however many things you’d like that you think make up the beautiful you! And end the “List of You” with a simple “I am (your name).” The List of You is meant to boost your own confidence, and self esteem. It is not out of bragging, but simply out of self love and encouragement! It is okay to be proud of who you are, and to show that you believe you are beautiful!
  5. Nominate as many people in the tag as you want, spread the message of confidence to as many hearts as possible! You can even nominate friends that don’t have blogs, and have them do their post on your own blog.

Alright with all that said, here is my own “List of You”. Again, this is completely out of self love, esteem, and to install and engage self confidence! I do not want to boast about who I am at all, it is completely meant to tend to my own heart and mind and to inspire you to create a list as well!

  1. I am strong. Mentally and physically.
  2. I am pretty, and I mean absolutely gorgeous just the way I am! #UGoGurl!
  3. I am smart, and I know what I am doing.
  4. I have my own unique, and amazing sense of style.
  5. I am creative, and crafty.
  6. I am an independent woman, who can do anything! #IAmWoman.HearMeROAR!
  7. I am pretty freakin cute.
  8. I am a singer, and have a passion for music.
  9. I am funny, I love to laugh, and have the ability to make others laugh.
  10. I am committed, and dedicated.
  11. I am a minister, and can be an example to others.
  12. I can make any time enjoyable, and memorable.
  13. I am a ukulele artist. *fixes bow tie*
  14. I am a good friend.
  15. I am a passionate blogger.
  16. I am an amazing big sis’.
  17. Everything I do is my own form of art.
  18. I am a lover of pizza rolls.
  19. It is okay for me to cry.
  20. I am precious, and loved.
  21. I can enjoy, have a good life, and have just as much fun as if I had a boyfriend in it.
  22. I have a specific God given purpose to fulfill on this earth that is all my own.
  23. I walk with confidence, without fear, and my head held high.
  24. My flaws and mistakes do not define me.
  25. I am my very own person, and I am free.
  26. Yellow is the color of my soul.
  27. I make my own decisions, and I am responsible.
  28. I am not and don’t have to be what others tell me.
  29. I am a loved daughter who is looked upon as precious and beautiful by the most high King of the universe.
  30. I am Hailey.

Now for my nominees!

I am doing this a little different though. I am not going to make a small list of people I am nominating for this tag, I actually nominate everyone that is apart of the #ChickenNuggetFam for this tag! Even if you aren’t following Sunshine & Rain and just stopped by, I still encourage you to follow along but I also challenge and nominate you for the Chapters of Confidence tag! So, yes! You there! I nominate you! Please spread this message of confidence as far as you can. This is something that I am really passionate about, and really tugs at my heart. I hope for this message to reach as many other hearts as possible! ❤

I want anyone that is going through the hurt that I did, and still do, to know that you are fearfully and wonderfully made by God! You are precious, loved, and oh so beautiful! You should love who you are, because you have a purpose that is all your own and you are amazing. You don’t have to make a Chapters of Confidence post, but I still very much encourage that you atleast sit down with a pen and paper and make a List of You. Pour out all the things that you love, and the great things that make up who you are! I can’t wait to see where this tag reaches, and I hope you enjoy making some of your own posts!

I’ll see ya later Chicken Nugget Fam, so stay confident, and keep smiling! Lot’s of love,

Sunshine, Flowers, and Beautiful Mornings: Spring is here.

Hailey Madison2 Comments
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You awaken and slowly, lightly, start to open your eyes. You’re in a pool of the warm morning sunshine. Slightly blinking a few times you scoot over to move your eyes out of the direct lighting, but you lay there, continuing to admire the glowing golden sun rays spread out and bouncing around the wall for a few moments. The moment feels priceless, you want to keep the day like this tucked in your pocket. The shadows moving from the trees. It’s pretty. You finally take in that you’ve just woken up, you suddenly feel good, and take a few deep slow breaths. Getting up from your bed. Opening the bedroom windows preparing to let the cool, fresh air in. You aren’t disappointed. You immediately feel a small rush of the cool morning air as the first window is raised, blowing against the curtain. The breeze slows. Then feeling it again as you raise the second. It sends an amazing shivering jolt through you, like a kick start. The breeze again then slows. It is oddly, but greatly soothing. It makes you feel free, it makes everything feel okay. You’re still standing at the window thinking about this, and letting the breeze blow your hair away from your face. Hear the rustling of the all trees everywhere, it’s like a powerful roar. The roar of Gods creation, the roar of nature. It also feels like a roar coming from you. It feels like it’s a part of you, like you have a roar in you. From your heart and soul. But it’s quiet and kind. It’s sweet. It’s calming, but wild. A roar from you. A free roar, a wild roar. You think about this. It’s like all the plants and trees and the breeze have a song, have a symphony, and it’s how they speak. Just listening. See the grass swaying, along with all the gorgeous flowers that keep blooming, and the blossoms on the trees start to peep through. Hear the birds singing, and freely flying into the morning sky. The bright blue sky you see. You are the only one in the room, but you feel the urge to smile. So you do. The scattered, clean white puffed clouds moving through it. Slowly moving, no rush, no worries about anything in life. Just focused on the present and continue moving forwards. You think about the cries you gave late last night to put yourself to sleep, all the tears you shed through anger, fear, and hurt. You think about the ache in your heart that every day, and by the minute encouraged the idea of giving up. You think about it. But you no longer feel it.

You search deeper inside, but you only find scars. The marks of healed things. Not a single hurt in sight. You feel happy. You feel cared about. You feel free, wild, important. You feel loved, and accepted. Like you’re apart of something. You can feel that tug on your heart from God, he is speaking to you. You now realize, this is a new morning. You can’t hold it in anymore, you can’t control it. You start to sob as the tears well up and stream down your face. You slowly lower to the ground with your back against the wall, with your chin tucked into your knees. But this time it isn’t a sob from hurt. It’s not from fear, and it’s not from pain. It’s a cry from joy. From happiness. From your healed heart. You continue to cry, in the arms of your Father. It’a as if a little bit of pain and hurt releases with every tear that falls. You now feel you’ve stepped out of the cold days you have always been living in. The days of winter, and into a new season. A season of Sunshine, happiness, of precious, and beautiful days. Pay attention to the little things, and blessings of life. They’ll do great things for you.

Spring is here.

My personal message to anyone who has been hurt, who is anxious, or scared: Your tears and pain won’t last forever. Trust God who loves you, and will be with you to hold your hand through every step you take in life. It’s okay to cry. It’s okay to be scared. It’s okay to be hurt. But we gotta get up, brush off the dirt, and be the strong youth we are meant to be. Take a stand and show who you are. We gotta keep moving forward. It’s a new season. So do me a favor my chicken nuggets: Be happy, Keep smiling 😉

limited edition you 🌻

Hailey Madison12 Comments

You are 1 in a million: Actually, 7.53 billion in fact. You are the only you. An Original. You are Limited Edition.

Hola dear beautiful flowers! *exhales* Today is going to be a more serious thing to cover. As you seen in the title, we are going to be going over the topic of the ‘limited edition you.’ The topic of who we are; or more specifically who you are, what makes you yourself, and what makes you uniquely you. Also how to see yourself as who you are. To see yourself (and others) beautifully and not who you want to be, or what you wish you could change. I know I deal and get anxious about this alot, and I know that I’m not the only one. So this is kinda random outta-the-blue thing to pop out of nowhere but I know there is somebody that might need it. So i’m gonna make like a bunny and hop right in hehe.

You are yourself. I know, as plain as that sounds it’s true! You are the only you in the entire universe, and you could never be exactly the same as anybody else. Yet for some reason, we try so hard to be like other people. We try to please other people by making ourselves “better”, but if you look closely it’s nowhere near better. No matter who we are or what we look like we always seem to be insecure about something or even lots of things about ourselves. I know this is a really hard thing to overcome, insecurity digs deep and we end up hurting ourselves deep inside because of it. I know I’ve definitely talked down to myself through my insecurities in the past, with just too many things I’ve told myself to keep track of. Things like “My laugh is so annoying” “My hair looks stupid like this” “This outfit is just totally wrong”. I was, and still often am always so worried about what other people think about me or how they see me and to be honest, I’m sick of it all. Paying attention to other peoples opinions about me in the past completely stopped me from being myself and loving the things I do. For example; I’d get an outfit that I absolutely loved and thought suited me. But if I got rubbed wrong about it or got one not-so-nice comment on it I’d hide it in the back of my closet and basically decide to never wear it again. I have slowly worked on training myself not to care about what some people might think, because if I love it then I am going to continue doing and they can’t stop me.

Sometimes we base ourselves off of our reflection in the mirror, or off what other people say we are. Someone isn’t fond of something we are doing and suddenly we are pointless. One person doesn’t like our sense of style and then we immediately tell ourselves we have terrible taste. We see one little part of our appearance we wish we could change and suddenly we are considered ugly. One thing I struggle with a lot, is I am actually a pretty short girl, 4’11 to be exact and I am bothered by this almost daily sometimes. I mean at this point I’m pretty used to all my friends being a good amount taller than me, but then sometimes it can lead to more insecurities. Being short and pretty tiny isn’t always fun, but hey there are advantages to it! For example I can fit in suuuuper small spaces in hide-n-seek. *smirks* I am sometimes teased about being so small, and my friends will make some pretty great jokes about it but it doesn’t bother me. It’s really funny actually if you stop worrying about it! I have chosen to accept who I am, or more specifically my height, and love who I am.

So let me tell you gurl, you are beautiful! We are all beautiful and that’s the truth. If you have a friend or someone else making you feel otherwise, then maybe it’s a good idea to find someone else to be around. That person is not worth it. It is totally okay for people to have their own opinions, but sometimes they should be kept to themselves, and peoples opinions shouldn’t affect and decide what we do with our lives. Each and every part of you is beautiful, and different from everybody else. And it was specifically chosen by God. You were chosen. From the sound of your laugh, to the color of your eyes, to your unique sense of style, to your fingerprint and every other part of you, your flaws and all! It was chosen by God. You were chosen. You were chosen for a specific purpose to fulfill on this earth that only you have. Isn’t that amazing to think about? You were chosen. You are not the reflection in the mirror, you are not your past mistakes, you are not your fears, you are not your insecurities, you are not the sizes of clothing you wear, and you are not what other people think about you. You wanna know who you are? You are beautiful all around! You are that spark of joy and creativity on the inside. You are your favorite color you put almost everywhere. (That’d be yellow for me haha! Whats your favorite color?) You are your special talents. You are the sound of your laugh, and your unique smile. You are your closest and best friends who share inside jokes with you. You are your favorite memories. You are your kind deeds and goodness to others. You are your future dreams. You are the way your hair is sometimes lazily thrown up into a bun. You are the places you love traveling to. You are the way you walk with confidence and your head held high. You are the jam out\dance sessions you have when you’re alone in your bedroom to your favorite songs! (Well, don’t know who all else does that, but I do hehe.) You are also royalty to the most high King of all, a precious and very much loved daughter. These are all the unique things that make up the unique you. I want this to help you see just how much of a prized possession, how loved, how amazing, and how beautiful you are. You are 1 in 7.53 billion. You are the only you. An Original. Limited edition.

You are a limited edition chicken nugget. xD

Starting Fresh:

Hailey Madison6 Comments

Hello dear blogging friends! *sighs* It’s great to be back. (Considering I haven’t posted in a couple of months.) You may be wondering about the title of this post, why it’s so out of the blue, and I’m not sure if anybody really noticed, but also to why I disappeared at the end of last year. So I’m going to explain all of that, and what “Starting Fresh” for me means today.

Well, I started this blog last Summer so it has been here a little while. But before I started this blog I didn’t really have a ‘Why’ to the reason I was doing this. I just started it blank minded with no idea what i’d do. I never stopped until now to ask myself, “What is the purpose of this blog?” or “What do I want or see the end outcome as?”, and I really regret not doing that before hand. I sorta started it, well, just because. The lack of thinking ahead lead to lack of creativity, lack of post ideas, lack of traffic around my blog, and basically no purpose to what I was doing. I’d gained a few followers here and there, (Which I am extremely thankful for, Thank you guys!; D) a couple comments every now and then, and some likes, but something just felt missing. Like something needed to be there, but wasn’t. I now realize that I don’t want people to just see what I put on here, but I want them to feel what I put on here. I want it to reach out and tug at peoples hearts, I want people to be able to relate to what i’m saying and be able to know they aren’t alone in this rough game we call life. I enjoy sharing, and want to share my life’s experiences. The good, and the not so good. I want to help young people like me to find their way, and lead them to Jesus through all of it. I want to encourage them with kind words, share my struggles in daily life, and show how we are able to brush off the dirt and dust of this world and still get back up and walk forward with God. I want to share my passion for serving Jesus, and encourage others to do it too. I want to let people know that there is a God, and he is a God of love, mercy, and grace. That he loves, and always will love each and every person, and he is with them every step of the way.

I have a huge passion for creativity, and being artistic, and I also have huge passion for spreading word and love of Jesus. So why not put those two together? I don’t want to do this just so people know who am, I want the world to know who God is. I want this blog to be able to make an impact in this world we are facing every day. I don’t want people to remember me, but I want them to remember that it’s okay. That they are forever loved, and they have their own specific purpose on this earth.

So with 2019 passed and 2020 here, I’m going to work on those types of improvements on this blog. I believe it is possible to use your own sense of creativity, spread the word of God, and have fun at the same time! So of course I am always going to make room for the silly and fun daily life posts, as well as the more serious deep posts. I haven’t been a blogger for long, but I know I absolutely love it! I am definitely going to work on a better posting schedule, since technically I never really had one. I think that’ll work a whole lot better than just posting whenever I felt like I should. (Which most of the time was about once or twice every couple of months.) You may have noticed a few changes to my blog design too, those I am still working on. I’m trying to get nice, clean and aesthetic blog layout that I really like and that I think suits my personality. : )

Thank you so much for checking out my latest post! I can’t wait to write my next one, let me know if there are any posts you’d like to see in the future. I have quite a few ideas already that I can’t wait to create! Until next time my little chicken nuggets! ; )