I decided to visit this room again

for what must be the thousandth time.

Gave me a sense of comfort

like you were still here.

My heart won’t accept that you’re gone.

~

It felt like everything was the way it used to be

left the way it was meant to play out

but it lead us through a different story,

now the silence has never been so loud.

~

In this room, dust is left upon each thing

each memory I dared not touch

for I was afraid to mess more up.

I wanted to keep as much as I could

the way it once was.

~

Thorns and thistles have taken over

the flowers that once bloomed here.

This room is plain and small,

but it was everything to me.

It once had color, when you were here.

~

Before you decided to leave,

to leave it all and walk out,

there was safety in the air.

Now it’s all empty

and I’m not sure if I want to be here.

~

I walked in that room

and felt along the wall for the switch.

Ah, there it is.

Lights strung across the ceiling flicker on,

and everything comes back.

~

It’s colder here now

but I guess we haven’t come here in awhile.

cold weather,

a gentle and sweet

autumn breeze

always makes me think of you.

~

The hum of our music still fills the room

your footprints still there in the dust

from where we danced.

~

Your footprints are left across the floor

and fingerprints across my heart,

and now they’ve turned to scars.

The lights here in this room are on,

but with you it was never this dark.

~

Your laugh still fills the empty space

the most lovely sound in existence.

I’d give anything to hear it once more.

~

I’ve closed up this room

so nobody may come inside

and touch what belongs to me,

but was never rightfully mine.

My mind has always known

I couldn’t keep it forever,

but to the things this room holds,

my soul is tethered.

~

I know I shouldn’t still be here

wallowing in the longing

for what I cannot have.

It’s unhealthy and suffocating,

but oh, how I want it back.

~

I stand in this very room

where we used to dance

and sway to our own melody

that only we could hear.

But all of it feels so far away,

just a distant memory.

~

Pictures cover the walls,

glimpses into the best moments,

though they’ve begun to fade.

Crumbling to pieces

I cannot make them stay.

I cannot bring back the color

to what those moments were.

~

Too many times i’ve come back here

letting the longing take over my soul.

Too many times i’ve sat and cried

on this floor where we once stood together.

Too many times has my heart

broke for you all over again.

~

Too long have I held onto someone

that already let go.

~

This empty place

has been the home of both happiness,

and hurt too.

Here I now begin to pick up these pieces

and tuck them away another place.

Here in this room I begin to clean

and wash away the hurt

of what was once here,

but is no longer.

~

Here in this room,

I begin to make space

for something new.

~

Someday,

someone else may come

to heal the wounds left by you

and make this our room.

~

someone for my heart to hold to.