Hey guys, I bet this won’t be the Blogmas post you were expecting, but Welcome to Blogmas Day #8 here on Sunshine & Rain.

I am not going to fully label this as Blogmas, because today is going to be a different topic. It’s not holiday related, but it’s something I really need to say. I have to say this.

A few weeks ago, my cousin committed suicide.

I wish I could’ve known the hurt he was feeling. The pain or frustration or stress that pushed him so far, that made him end his own life. A decision that cannot be taken back.

I didn’t know him well, but when I found out about what happened I was in complete shock, and a wave of sadness and grief came over me.

I would have done anything to stop it.

19 is too young to die.

I wish I would have known it was gonna happen. I couldn’t and still can’t stop asking myself, “God knew it was going to happen so why didn’t he send someone to stop it? Why didn’t he send me?”

Because I would be there in a heartbeat.

The unfortunate thing is, those are questions that we don’t have the answer to. I ask myself over and over why God sees what’s going to happen and doesn’t send someone to stop it. But God works in mysterious ways, and what happened happened for a reason.

My heart still hurts so much. Because a precious life came to an end way too early, and he wasn’t the only one.

Every 40 seconds, someone takes their own life.

There is so much more ahead for all of these people, so much that they won’t get to see. God has a purpose and a perfect plan for everyone. He gave us each the lives we have for a reason.

I wish I could save them all. How I wish I could.

Every day, so many people make the decision to end their own life. And that breaks my heart to pieces. That’s the thing about me, I love people too much to let anyone do something like that.

I am so sick and tired of sitting around going about my own life, when there is someone out there hurting so badly right now. Multiple people. And I want to do something.

I can’t save everyone, which hurts so much, but I am not going to stop trying to save anyone I can. And I need others to stand up with me. Guys, we need to save these people.

Our tongues hold the power of life and death. That one rude comment you give, could be the one last thing that pushes someone to the point of death tonight.

But that one single compliment you give. That one random act of kindness like holding the door open or paying for their meal in the drivethrough. That could change their whole perspective. That could save their lives.

Please make someone feel like they matter, because they do matter and are loved more than they know. We should be training ourselves to treat every single person like they could be thinking about ending their own life that day. Because ya’know what?

They could.

And please, if you are hurting I am reaching out to tell you that you have to keep going. Jesus loves you more than you know and he has so many promises for you. Life will bring struggles and life will bring pain and hurt, but there is so much more ahead for you. Life will also bring memories, and smiles, and joy, and beauty. The pain you have been feeling cannot compare to the joy that is coming. Romans 8:18 promises that. Keep pushing through.

You are beautiful no matter what anyone says or thinks.

You are loved beyond measure, and you are not forgotten.

Dear, I don’t know what exactly you’re facing or who you are, but please don’t do it. Please darling. Don’t give up. If you keep going, in the end you will look back and be so happy because it will be so worth it!

Please talk to me. I know what it feels like to have no motivation anymore. To feel empty, not understood by anyone at all, unseen, frustrated, stressed, unworthy, unheard, like you don’t matter to anyone. I know what grief is. Grief so deep it makes you want to puke. I know what hurt is. I know what its like to feel completely hopeless.

I deal with these things on a daily basis. But I am not going to give in, and I will not give up. You have just got to wipe your tears, and keep climbing this mountain like the strong person you are. I will keep going because there is an assignment on my life that I meant to live out and fulfill. You have that too. My life will be beautiful, and so will yours.

This is a safe place to talk, please send me an email on my contact page if you want someone to talk to. I don’t want you to feel alone, and I definitely don’t want to you to make the choice of ending your life when you have a promise of an entire beautiful life ahead of you.

Or if you’d feel more comfortable, you can speak with a Suicide prevention counselor anytime 24/7, by calling this number right here: 800-273-8255

Please don’t keep in your pain for yourself, please tell someone and get help.

Hon’, please, trust me. I know. It’s so, so hard. Life is tough, but so are you. You have to keep going. There is so much more that lies ahead, I promise there is.

The darkness of the night will end, and the sun will rise again.

Suicide is not the answer. I know how hopeless it feels. Like you need an escape, and have nowhere to turn. But Death is not the answer.

Jesus is your answer.

I have only been here for a handful of years, but I still know that life is worth living, and life is beautiful.

It makes me ache inside knowing that right this minute, someone is about to give up for good. And there may be no one there to stop it.

God promises that he will never forget you. He promises to always recklessly love you. Darling, he loves you so much. He holds you every day, and he watches over you through your journey.

You are not unloved. You are not forgotten. You are not useless. You are not weak. You are not pointless. Life is not pointless. Life, is beautiful.

There is so much more to come for you. So much more.

What a wonderful thought it is that some of the best days of our lives, haven’t happened yet. So many smiles and laughs and overwhelmingly joyful days that are still to come.

So hon’, please don’t do it.

No matter how painful, and frustrating.

No matter how stressful, or hopeless feeling,

No matter how dark.

There is still a promise from God that will forever remain.

Your life will be beautiful.

You have been created and put on this earth to do something that no other person has ever done before.

There is always light at the end of the tunnel.

Keep going hon.

It’s a promise from God

Life is worth living.

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